10 feb 2016
So new journal.
Gonna start with the rats this time. I think I have gotten as far as I ever will with my boys, its just a coexisting were I feed them and get nothing back. They are never gonna trust me.
And I told you about that breeder I finally built up the courage to contact. Well I did, and I got no real response. Just excuses that she is really busy right now and that she’ll get back to me. That is seven weeks ago. So I wrote her again, some three weeks ago, but still no answer. Don’t even know if she’s bothered to read it. And I know she’s on facebook every day, cause she’s posting pics of this beautiful litter that she has right now, that I would love to be a part of. But it feels like all the boys are already planned for, but if she could just tell me that then, rather than just leave me hanging?
Should probably talk to her about it (or try at least) rather than bitch about it here… But I don’t know how to do that without getting annoyed at her.
I have told her how my rats live and how the situation looks, if she does not like it and don’t want to sell to me, cant she just tell me that? I know my motivation is not on top, and this past month I totally lost hope that I would even laugh again. If I don’t hear from her soon, I’m gonna start staring at the rats in the pet-store again (and you should never EVER buy animals in a store, EVER), that’s how crappy I feel.
On the house-front, I bought an apartment, haven’t told anyone except the family. It has its pros and cons but in the end it was price and location that tipped the scale, it was just too good to pass up on. But have no furniture, and don’t feel that motivated in getting any, since it’s on the third floor and no elevator… Lame excuse I know. But I have no friends to help me with this kind of thing. I have my sister and her boyfriend, my dad (who has a very sore back) and my brother (who is always with his girlfriend out of town).
Not even gonna go into the dog-subject this time…
First part ->
Dogs, work, houses, rats, cats and life31 dec 2015
So, New Years Eve... woho. As I probably mentioned last year - I hate NYE, it just shows that yet an other year has passed and the same shit is or is not happening. So, what IS different?
* (Jan) I got a permanent job at that mine I've working for since 2011, but but I didnt get my own placement so they can move me around as they please. A major stress-factor for me, since that is happening right now. They have til Jan 31 to decide whether Ill stay (til summer) or if I have to start working daytime. If I work daytime - Ill never get to go to my house...
* (Feb) I got my first rats! A dream come true. Or so I thought. Nothing turned out as I hoped. And I dont even try to make it better, dont have the energy, it is drained.
* (May) My first real vacation ever (spent at the house of course)
* (Sep) Turned 25 in september, a major milestone to some, for me it is just a number that tells me how big of a failure I am, how much I s