neopokles

Im not dead, even if activity here has been extremely low for the past year, havent posted a picture in ages... Instagram is easier I guess, but honestly there is not much there either. First, I have not gotten used to this new design they made for dA, not sure I like it, its hard to find stuff and go through messages and stuff, have that old designe for so many years... A well, its not like I am using this site all that much anymore. So why am I typing this? Honestly? Im not sure. Of that either. But the thing is I found something ells to do to handle my shitty life. Sort of. Years ago I drew (there is a link to my artaccount on my profile), but I just lost confidense from one dat to the next and just stopped. And I regret that, cause I have so many pictures I want to draw but as I put pen to paper my mind goes blank. Every. Single. Time. Will see if I ever get back to that. No, what I was gonna say is, in august last year I started writing. It is not the first time, I tried a few

July 14th Did not really have anything to say, but wanted to write it down. It took six weeks. Six weeks before Neo started eating on his own again. Still dont know why he stopped in the first place. But he is back to his old self now, mostly. Last day of vacation part two, going back to work for a week today. Dont want to. Not ready for the summer to be over, but it will be, in a heartbeat. Finally saw HTTYD3 yesterday, watched it with a friend of mine who also love the movies. She loved it. And I guess I did to, but I was also dissapointed. Cant really put my finger on it, the "bossfight" was to easy, the suspence moments were to short.

November 29th, 2018 I came to a conclusion today - I am unlovable. Perhaps that is sad, perhaps not, but it is just a thought that struck me square in the face today. I just don't have a very inviting aura or personality. I was just thinking today that if my sister had been working at the same place as me she would be surrounded by guys, not like me, I'm never approached . But I guess I just unintentionally push people away, I have to be the one taking that first step and I'm not that kind of person. A few times have I felt that I want to be friends with someone, but I always get a little shy to talk to them and since they never take initiat